I haven't made much progress in my work since yesterday. Right after i reached the library, i went to the shelves to look for a particular book. It wasn't there, but i ended up taking 6 other books, two of which are pretty thick. Desperate times call for desperate measures. I had randomly picked a few books whose titles suggest that their contents might be somewhat remotely relevant to the subject on Imperialism. I browsed through the content pages and felt a (mistaken) sense of comfort when i see the words 'empire' and 'imperialism'.
I returned to my seat and put the books on the table. Turned out it's quite a considerable stack. For a moment i foolishly wondered if other people might have noticed it. 'Here comes another chao-mugger in our midst, damn!' Then i proceeded to check my email and was reassured by my professor's prompt reply to my email that was sent out this morning. No, it wasn't any approval for an extension of dateline; it was just a clarification of my doubts. Nonetheless, i felt a sense of relief. In such precarious times, uncertainty only serves to breed a sense of panic, so clarification is important - it helps you to plan the right strategy (like doing only the absolutely necessary stuff).
Sometimes, in a bad or urgent situation you know things aren't making the slightest improvement, but occasionally when there are some unexpected adjustments or new inputs, it is possible to feel a sense of optimism.
And optimism, i assure you, matters a great deal.
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